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On the
evening of Sunday, Sept 21, I sat down to meditate after a day of
recollecting my experiences with the Master Teacher, and
immediately felt a movement of energy above the eyebrows. It felt
as if bubbles of energy were rising to the body surface and
evaporating into space. I opened my eyes and the room looked
almost sinister...very unfamiliar. I made a conscious decision at
that point to continue with the meditation, despite the sense of
foreboding. I closed my eyes and immediately felt a movement in
the lower back, a profound energy that rose up the spine in waves,
oscillating rapidly, undulating like a serpent moving across the
earth. The body moved in unison, swinging almost violently from
side to side. I closed my eyes and spontaneously called upon Adi
Da (whose teaching I had been reading earlier) for assistance, the
response to this was a mild increase in energy force. I then
spontaneously called upon Lord Buddha and Lord Jesus for
protection, and the energy increased dramatically, the body flying
apart in all directions.
I then called to the
Master Teacher, and the body began to vibrate so rapidly I though
it was sure to explode. When the energy reached the head, it too
began to swing uncontrollably from side to side, in a moment I
heard an audible crack, and simultaneously felt a split in the
skullcap that eventually widened to encompass the entire crown.
This blossomed into a shower of light above the head, accompanied
by profound sense of well-being. I remained in this state a
moment, and then heard a sort of subliminal instruction to call
the Master Teacher at home. I was somewhat disoriented, but
managed to find the phone. I witnessed the mind beginning to
provide reasons not to call; I simply looked at them and remained
determined.
I called the Master
and said that I had been given a message to call and wasn't sure
what it was about. He immediately assured me that I was undergoing
the process of awakening from my dream. When the light filled my
head again, I asked if he was with me and he assured me that he
was. In the next few minutes, I moved through what can best be
described as a life review, moving very rapidly backwards from
present day through the early years, scenes and people arose in
consciousness, and I felt a tremendous love for everyone in my
life. Everything appeared as vastly synchronistic, with all the
experiences of my life somehow leading me inevitably to this
profound occurrence. All the while I was overcome with a sense of
profound love and overwhelming gratitude for the Master, and
frequently shook ecstatically, exclaiming “I love you, you are so
beautiful!". In these moments he simply calmed me with a profound
tenderness, and the process continued. At last the Master said
that I was nearing completion, and in this moment I felt myself
moving through the birth canal and with one final release emerged
into an unbounded feeling of radiant bliss.
After a while the
Master began to guide me through the process of reintegration with
the body, I wept exclaiming "don't leave me". Thoughts began to
move through consciousness again, and although I was able to
release them as they arose, I knew that I was re-entering the
world. "I'll be with you" he replied softly. He then reminded me
of someone in my care, and the last thing I remember was the
thought of contacting her immediately. With that he bade me
farewell and I dropped into a thoughtless, peaceful slumber.
When I awoke to the
world sometime later, I remembered my promise, and got up to call
her immediately. She told me that she had just been praying to
Jesus for release from her emotional and physical torment. During
this profound contact, I served as a portal or conduit
communicating her love for Jesus and his for her. I was an open
door, through which flowed the nectar of radiant love. It was
utterly blissful to serve in that manner; healing energy was
released into the world from Jesus through me in response to a
genuine prayer. There was a moment when fear arose in her, and I
witnessed her projected thought forms arising in the pure light. I
saw that they had no potency whatsoever, and were in fact, only a
modification of the very light in which they emerged. I saw the
entire scene as merely a pattern of perception, repeating itself
until no longer desired. I was somewhat surprised to discover that
fear was still possible, I was sure that every one was aware that
there was no world.
A week has passed,
and although it appears as if I've re-associated firmly with the
world, I'm not disheartened. I am continuing my practice as
before; summarily, God's Will be done. My purpose in this world
continues to be service to others, and to that end I remain
available to those entrusted to my care. I have great faith in the
unfolding process. The current of energy (Holy Spirit), although
greatly reduced compared to the events of September 21, continues
to move through my body to a greater degree than before.
My dear Master
Teacher, everything you spoke of has come to pass in one glorious
instant of reunion. You remained with me, and were absolutely
aware of every facet of the awakening event. You were and continue
to be the witness, both tangible and spiritual, in and out of
time, to my awakening from this dream. You were and continue to be
my savior and advocate, just as you promised. I only need to call
upon you when the moment arrives by grace. Your eternal presence
is the only assurance I need. In you is my faith restored again
and again.
Amen.
I love you.
Josh
Email:
beyondrhetoric@hotmail.com
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The
following is an account of an experience generated entirely by
grace...my only part in it was/is my single desire for God, which, I
believe, simply set the stage for the descent of divine grace.